I've written before about how I tend not to live "in the moment"....always thinking about what will come next rather than enjoying the time I'm in. I've been thinking about how up until recently, that's just what life was about: waiting and preparing for the next phase. In high school I was preparing for college. In college, thinking about graduate school. In grad school, getting ready for the big bad world of employment. After S and I had been dating for a while...a long while :-)...I waited for us to be engaged. And then of course it was getting ready to be married. And then waiting to start a family. Stewart finishing school. My whole life has been one big "what's next?" But a few times in the last couple months, it has just randomly hit me that I'm not waiting for anything. This is my life. And the best part? I LOVE IT! Sure, there will always be changes, hopefully owning a home, growing our family, taking on new challenges and adventures. But for right now, this is where I am and it's where I want to be. I am content. What a great feeling.
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It just occured to me that most of these "a-ha" moments have occurred while I was driving. Think that has anything to do with the fact that I now drive a "mom SUV"?? :-)
Nicely put. I wrote a tour devotion along these lines senior year (what, you don't remember??? I'm so hurt), and I think about it every once in a while because there was a line about reaching a point in life where you're waiting to be able to afford Ethan Allen furniture, which seemed ridiculously far in the future my senior year of college, and now I occasionally think, yep, I have reached the wanting-nice-furniture stage of life. Old. =)
Posted by: Missy | March 02, 2012 at 06:46 PM
Yes Missy, maybe I should clarify. I am content. But Id still love me a house full of Ethan Allen furniture. :-)
Posted by: Court | March 02, 2012 at 09:23 PM